19 y/o Virgin

Yes, I'm 19 and I'm a virgin. Shocking, right?

When I was in High School, around 9th and 10th grade, I really liked this guy. I'll call him "Antonio". I had the biggest crush on him. We used to walk home everyday, he was even my first kiss. To tell the truth, I really wanted to go further than that and that's exactly what my friends would tell me to do. Me being the person I am, I don't do what others tell me. I do what I want. Just because all of my friends weren't virgins (except for two) didn't mean I needed to lose my virginity when I wasn't ready to. So one day I grew enough courage to ask him out and he turned me down. I was upset because I thought he liked me the same way. He told me the reason why he rejected me and I understood. He said "I don't want to corrupt you." I respect him for that. He could have easily tried to use me for my virginity and treated me like dirt after he got what he wanted. He knew that I was a virgin and had wholesome values and he didn't want to destroy the image that I had built and took pride in. I've gotta say, that's probably the nicest thing a guy has ever done for me. Usually they'll just come out and say they want sex. After I tell them that they're not getting that from me, they don't talk to me ever again. I see it like this, if they can't wait for me & my love, they're not worth my time.

I feel like this, lose your virginity when YOU want to. Don't do if for anybody else. A lot of people that I know regret their first time. They would either say they weren't ready, they didn't love the person they lost it to, they got treated like sh*t afterward. I've heard it all. I don't want to regret my first time at all. I want it to be unforgettable. I want the guy I let have my most prized possession be worthy of it because when it's gone, I'll never be able to get it back. I just want to make sure that he's in love with me and vice-versa. True, I have thought about losing my virginity a few times but it's like GOD has steered me away from those thoughts and he's actually made me aware that I shouldn't have. He actually has saved me from the jerks I thought about giving it to. A lot of people aren't waiting these days. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find my prince charming who will wait for me. It's hard to find him in this sex filled society that promotes images of sex on Television and in media. Everybody is having sex now, so to speak. Not me, I'm gonna choose to wait it out, no matter how old I get.